Millions of people were amused by a video of Alika Agidi-Jeffs singing on a Tube train last year. But the musician was suffering from serious mental health problems, and told BuzzFeed News what it was like to be caught up in the viral web.
This is 23-year-old aspiring musician and artist Alika Agidi-Jeffs.
The Londoner became the unwitting star of a viral video back in 2012, when he was filmed singing along to Drake and Rihanna's “Take Care” while travelling on the London Underground.
The clip has so far been watched around 2.5 million times on YouTube, and numerous websites, including BuzzFeed, covered it when it went viral for a second time in 2014.
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Agidi-Jeffs today gave his side of the story and revealed he was suffering serious mental health problems at the time the video was recorded.
The Londoner said he was dealing with the death of a family member, the end of a five-year relationship, and issues relating to an absent father and family arguments.
As a result he was suffering from severe depression, manic episodes, and suicidal thoughts.
"Singing became my escape," he said. "To be honest, it was more like a cry for help.
"The video wasn't planned. I was just a boy living in the moment, trying to be free, but unfortunately for me it got captured. At the time I was going through depression, anxiety, manic episodes, self-harm, voices, and illusions in my head and I didn't let anybody know."
He later had a breakdown, spending four months in a psychiatric hospital, before being diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2014.
But Agidi-Jeffs, who performs under the name Infecta, told BuzzFeed News he is now grateful for the video's existence, saying it "needed to happen".
"When the video first came out I was definitely outraged and embarrassed by it," he said.
However with the passing of time, "I look back and actually appreciate going through that depression or breakdown or whatever people want to call it. It gave me a chance to just take time off, so I appreciate it, I’m actually happy for it."
He added that it had also given him a new perspective on the nature of viral videos and how the subjects may not always have consented in their recording.
"Whenever I see something on Facebook nowadays... As soon as it’s anything that’s going to be like someone who is hurting themselves or basically someone who is being made a fool out of, I deliberately avoid them," Agidi-Jeffs said.
"I don’t watch it, I won’t partake in it, because now I know what it’s like being on the receiving end of that, I’m not going to be a hypocrite. And life has been better since."
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The result, he said, is that people are too afraid to relax properly. He said it felt, especially in London, that everyone was overly self-conscious and worried about being politically correct and socially accepted.
"As soon as anyone let's their hair down, it's usually seen as something so out of the normal that 'oh my god, it must be captured', and as soon as it gets captured... If they trace back who that person is, it gets used against them," he said.
"Where does the line get drawn? It's like – OK, that's just normal humans doing normal human things once in a while, breaking away from behaving like robots."
via on BuzzFeed
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